are addicting. I probably had close to 40, if not more. That's 700 calories (140 for eight cookies). Then I had two scoops of baked beans (~140), two spoonfuls of potato salad (~80), and a mint chocolate ice cream bar (270). Grrr. This is why I shouldn't eat. I mean it wasn't a binge but it was more than I wanted. Then I had a bunch of milk, probably 120 cals. I had a Sunny D for breakfast (90). That was so much. 1400 calories. No food tomorrow. I definitely won't weigh 104 tomorrow. I'm sure I'll have gained from all those cookies. FUUUCCCKKKK!!!!! I need to throw those away but they aren't mine. It's okay. I'm only here for a few more days. After the race, I'll go back home and I'll be away from them. After the race, I'm back to fasting. I don't need food.
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Today I had my final final. I have completed my second semester of college. 1 year down. 3 (or more) to go. I'm so glad this semester is over. It'll be nice to have some time off.
I'm tired. I want to go to bed. Probably will soon. I can't wait to sleep in again. It'll feel so nice. Ok well I don't have much else to say. Night loves.
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Don't be too hard on yourself, 1400 calories is probably still below your basal metabolic rate! Good luck on your race and your fast! Congrats on completing your second semester of college! I hope you have a lovely day tomorrow. :)
americaneaglelove is right, 1400 isnt so bad when you put it into perfective. yayy for completing your second semester!! and double yayy for time off :)
sleeping in should be nice too. hope you have an amaziiing day tomorrow!
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I know how you feel with the eating...I have been muffin-topping over my jeans lately and its starting to depress me. And I work at a freaking gym. WTH. haha but dont worry :) You will be fine.
And isn't the satisfaction of being down with your first year or college wonderful?
I'm in love with those freaking things so much that i can't be around them, i can eat the whole box in minutes. 1400 calories too bad but i know how it feels when you hit a number like that, i always freak out but hopefully tomorrow you'll feel more in control. Glad college is done for now, that's awesome and yay for sleeping in again, that's so much fun, i did that today! :D
everyone needs food, even a super chick like you. :] xxx
Sorry you feel so rough but that's still so little cals :[
That's great that the finals are over though :]
Hope you get a well deserved nights rest Xxxxx
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