Saturday, May 14, 2011

fucking a!

I texted my therapist awhile ago asking her what to do when I felt out of control.
She said "Radical acceptance. Stop trying to contorl. Accept and go with the flow."
To which I responded "That's not helpful. it's a little late for radical acceptance. unless im accepting that on my 2 month anniversary of not cutting i cut. pathetic. the self-destruct urge continues."
"Sorry that happened. Do you need medical attention?""No im fine."
"Ok. Well DBT rules are that I can't talk to you for 24 hrs. Stay safe. If necessary, go to the hospital."
"Ok."

Thanks for all your help therapist. Glad to know I can fucking count on you. Maybe I should just do something more. Man fuck you bitch.

6 words from my listeners:

americaneaglelove said...

I'm really concerned about you! I hope that you're okay. Why do the rules say that she isn't allowed to talk to you for 24 hours? She's supposed to help you! Stay safe, we're all here for you.

SilentNightmare said...

^^Agreed don't understand what her not talking to you accomplishes *hugs*. Plz stay safe hun

Aly said...

yes, like WTF is with that rule? please explain.
Stay safe. xx
I'm worried.

GraceyJ said...

im here if you EVER need to talk okay !
xx

Lissy said...

Mmm I LOVE a bit of radial acceptance(!)- note the sarcasm.

I'm sorry she's been so shit. That really is a massive fail- boo her.

And I'm sorry you cut but hey fuck it. It happened, so what? You did two months and that's fucking impressive and I am both proud and jealous in equal amounts! So go girl. You did 2 months once, you can do it again, and each time you'll go a little bit longer and eventually, after time, you'll feel less need to do it.

You're doing really well and I'm really proud okay, this is just a bump in the road xxxxxxxx

Tiffany Tilly said...

She kind of sounds like bitch! I hope things start to get better, accept the past and move past it, you can't fix it but you can make tomorrow better. I know exactly how it feels, i was really afraid to say i cut last night too and i'm freaking out about still but there's nothing you can do. You made it two months, that's really good, just try again, see how long you can go this time. Stay safe and i'm worried about you.

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