Friday, May 6, 2011

out of it

I'm just a little bit out of it. My head's in a fog. I'm not sure what's going on. Sleep to come soon. I want to sleep forever. I'm tempted to cut. Haven't had an urge to cut in awhile. I take that back. I had some last week. Nothing makes sense right now. I'm confused. What the fuck is going on? I feel like I'm on a bad trip. That reminds me. I have pills. I could take some and have a real trip. I'm kinda dizzy. I can barely concentrate. Why am I typing this? Am I making sense? I'm not making sense. I'm losing it. I should just go to sleep. I want to die. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why am I like this? My heart beat is slow. Did I take something already? What did I do? I don't think I did anything. I need sleep. I'm going to sleep. Good night.

4 words from my listeners:

DietCokePlease said...

Sweety, please don't cut. It isn't worth it! Have some GOOD sleep and hopefully you will feel better tomorrow, il be thinking of you. xxx

SilentNightmare said...

I hope you were able to sleep and stay safe hun *hugs*

Tiffany Tilly said...

Please get some sleep, cutting is not going to help anything, i would know, i broke down tonight and gave into the urges. IT just hurts me than it's worth. I hope tomorrow is better and i understand the racing thoughts and confusion, i'm going through the same thing right now. My mind won't shut up and i just need sleep. Take a relaxing bath or do something to get you more sleepy, something good for you!
Much Love xoxo <3

AlwaysStriving said...

I hope you were able to find some peace and sleep without cutting. I kind of woke up feeling the way you described in this letter. I'm worried about you but I know that you are strong and that you can survive this. I love you <3

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