good news...

I didn't cut. It was tough though. I didn't call my therapist right away. I was too scared. I just tried distracting myself. I signed on to facebook and my friend was on so I talked to her. She wasn't doing well either. She told me she was thinking about signing herself back into the hospital. Things really aren't going well for her. :( I just want her to feel better. I hate her feeling like this because I was there and I know how dark of a place that is. I'm just really worried about her. Anyways, I was listening to music and decided to get up and dance for a song. That cheered me up. :) Then we talked a little more before she got a call back from her therapist. Then I was all by my lonesome. The urge came back. I tried doing a sudoku but the urge wasn't fading. So then I called my therapist. You want to know what she said? "Distract yourself." It's like "NO SHIT!! What the fuck do you think I've been doing for the past hour??" She told me to watch a movie. I didn't like my movie selection so I watched youtube videos. I rediscovered Kendal Glover. She's an amazing 11 (maybe 12) year old dancer. She has some serious talent. Then my grandma came home and we went and got ice cream. Now I'm typing this. 0.o
Food was too much. At least 2000 calories. I had a mini binge. :(
School was okay. I froze my butt off in the biology lab. It felt nice walking outside to my next class. I took my math class. Doubting how I did. Maybe a B if I'm lucky. Stupid formulas.
Not much else going on.
I'm tired as hell. I'm going to bed.
Still can't see blogs. >.<

Positives:
-The house is a bit cooler than yesterday.
-I didn't cut.
-I finished reading my chapter for my final tomorrow. (However, I didn't look at the powerpoint. 0.o)