fast

As in fasting. I didn't eat today. (I'm sure you all know what fasting means. I just wanted to say that I didn't eat. 0.o) I don't plan on eating tomorrow either. Possibly no eating on Wednesday if I can get away with it. Will probably eat on Thursday. Won't want to but I probably will. Three days of fasting should suffice. I wish I could do longer. I'll probably end up throwing up. I don't know why I do that. Sometimes when I go without eating for too long I throw up. It's rather annoying and gross. Bile is icky. I did drink a lot of calories today though. Probably around 215. I had a Powerade (200), half of a Crystal Lite drink (5), and a few sips of soy milk (~10). Could have been better. I wish I would have had a Powerade Zero but there weren't any left. Oh well. I burned it all off. I went on a 3 mile run/walk. I walked about .6 miles when we went to look at an apartment. So I burned around 245 putting me negative 30 calories. Then if you add my BMR, I was negative 1,286. That's pretty kick ass. I like being so negative. Plus I took a green tea pill today and I've lost .8 pounds since this morning. Again, kick ass.
Today has been a pretty good day (besides food). I read my final chapter and wrote my extra credit paper. It's a little longer than two pages. Hope the teacher doesn't mind.
I went to the eating disorder DBT group. I like this one much better. The girls were still all older than me but I seemed to be closer age to them than in the other group. I like this leader much better. It's kinda funny because she has the same name as the old group leader. I wrote a letter to my ED. I might post it. I don't know. It's an angry letter with love and understanding at the bottom. I guess I can post it. I'll do that next.
Tired. So tired.
I have my first final tomorrow. 0.o Nervous but not horribly nervous. I think I know the material pretty well. At least I hope I do...
Ummm, my buddy's still in the hospital. :(
I'm lonely.
Don't know what else to say.
Later my loves.