24 hours

I have spent the last 24 hours in a good mood. Well, I take that back. I was in quite the bitchy mood last night after my therapist told me she couldn't (more like wouldn't) talk to me for 24 hours. I almost took some pills (to get high). I opened the pill box and had a drink and everything. Then I decided it wasn't worth it. I just wanted to go to sleep. It took me almost two hours to go to sleep. Fucking pissed me off. Then I wake up at three in the morning and can't fall back asleep because my thoughts were racing about my therapist again. Grrrr. But I must say once I was up for the day (after 9 am), I started feeling better.  Actually, no, not quite that early. I was still upset. I told my grandparents I cut when I was telling them why I was in a bad mood. They weren't mad or anything so I guess that's good.
I cleaned my room..like dusted and vacuumed and all that lovely shizz.
Read two chapters for biology. Only one more to read. Final is Tuesday. 0.o
Worked a little bit on math. I actually remembered how to do some of the stuff. 0.o x 2493493579257979
My grandparents house is officially on the market. Did I tell you guys that I would be moving? Well, if not, you know now. We have to downsize. My grandparents can't afford the house payment anymore. It's sad because I just moved in and got unpacked just to have to pack up and move again. :( My grandparents have lived here for 13 years. I wish they didn't have to move. They wish so too.
I ate too much..as usual. My grandpa is buying me a hot fudge sundae. Just what I need. FAT ASS!!
My friend is still in the hospital.
My mom and sister are home from camping. My little sister fell in the lake. Classic. lol.
Ummm, I don't know what else to say.
Oh yes I do. I just want to say that I'm here for anyone who is struggling. I'm sorry that things have been so hard on people lately with deaths and self-harm. Makes me sad. I wish the world didn't rain on people who deserved the sun. I love you guys. Please stay safe.

Positives (it's been awhile since I've done these):
-I had yummy pancakes.
-I saw my mommy.
-I wasn't as stressed out today.
-I didn't OD last night.