I'm up

but not in a good way. I gained weight yesterday, 1.6 pounds. I now weigh 109.4. What a fat, disgusting failure I am. I just wish I could tear my body apart. I was planning on fasting today but that plan was ruined. I went over to my sister's house (where my mom and dad live) so my grandpa could work on my mom's care. My little sister had made my favorite pasta salad. I didn't want it but at the same time I did. She dished me a plate and I ate it. I felt horrible. Then I figured, "you already fucked up your fast so you might as well keep eating." I proceeded to eat one package of Poptarts (400) and another helping of pasta salad. I have decided that I will eat nothing more tonight. Although I must say, I am very tempted to eat some peanut butter fudge which I also binged on last night after my post. So grrrrrrr!!!! >.< I painted my nails when I was at my sister's house. It was mood changing nail polish. When I put it on, it started off dark, then it dried into a bright blue. Now as I am typing this, the color is practically black. I guess that means I'm depressed. Oh the joy. I finally caught up on everyone's blogs. Sorry for not doing so last night. I was just so tired after my little sister's talent show.
OH WAIT! I have to tell you about it!
Let me tell you, it was the most EPIC....FAIL EVER! It was totally unorganized. The emcees didn't know what they were saying. The little on-going skit was horrible. The mics didn't work half the time. Half (more than half actually) of the acts SUCKED. It was like seriously? What the fuck am I watching? My sister's act did pretty good though. =) I was soooo glad to be out of there. True story. I practically fell asleep on the way back home. That's why I didn't get back on. So yeah. Guess that's it. Don't know if I'll post again tonight. We'll see!