new week

I feel like a fat failure. I tried to work out just now but the motivation is not there. It's like I've given up when it comes to my eating. I ate so much today. I ate two full meals. I obviously want to be fat. I hate myself. I hate my body. I'm so gross and disgusting. These are my ED thoughts taking over. I should let them take over. Maybe then I'll do something to make myself skinny. fucking fat ass bitch.
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School was good. Nothing too exciting. Test in Criminology next Wednesday. Reading the chapter this weekend. Reading for my other classes as well. Then I have to get caught up on my math assignments. This last one is crucial. I have to do better on my next test. It's critical.
The day was wasted on the computer. I was mainly doing stuff on facebook for my mom (cooking in Cafe World). So boring and so annoying. I hate that game, especially when my mom does catering jobs. Pain in my ass.
I downloaded tons of music for my i-pod.
I watched a documentary on child anorexics.
Basically I did nothing all day except sit on my ass and get fat. Grrr. (>.<)

Positives:
-My mom left me another song on my voicemail this morning.
-My grandma bought me some more yogurt.
-My grandma bought me a cute little stuffed animal bunny for Easter.
-I now have lots of new music on my i-pod.
-I successfully completed last week's goals. :)
That's all I can think of. I'm in a bad mood right now. :(

Thing I like about myself:
I'm (school) smart.