well dang!

Lissy-Don't worry about me. I'm (relatively) fine (for now). I am taking care of myself. I'm still eating..bunches. I think I have gained at least 3 pounds since Saturday. I only cut once and that was on Monday night. I'm feeling safer now. So don't worry.
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Only one person commented on my previous post. ='( jk but really, I thought it was worthy of a comment or two. I guess it doesn't really matter because I'm pretty sure you guys already knew most of that about me. I don't know. I had the hardest time coming up with things to say. So I guess it's okay that only one person commented. Oh well.
My food intake started off great. I didn't eat til 1 pm. I had a yogurt and 8 cut up pieces of fruit. Then I got hungry and had a big dinner (burrito with rice). I went for a 1.5 mile run with my mom. That was good. I ran the last half mile by myself. I kinda wanted to do more but I decided I did enough. listen to the lies you tell yourself. fat pig. you'll never be enough. Then my mom went to Sonic and I got a hot fudge sundae. It was huge. It even had whipped cream and a cherry! fat fat fat. Then I came home and finished my mini bag of popcorn. you ate enough today to feed 5 families in Japan. My thoughts are rapid and mean. I'm feeling guilty. Tomorrow I'm going on two runs. I'm running at least 3 miles tomorrow. fucking fat bitch. you know that's not enough. I wish I could turn the voice off. I'm tired of the thoughts.
Did little work on my paper again today. I researched a little bit so I guess that's a step in the right direction. lazy bitch. you're going to fail. you always fail. not good enough. never good enough.
I'm going to bed. I want to escape these thoughts. Good night.