Wednesday, March 9, 2011


I want to. so bad. really bad. Fucking shoot me in the head. I'm tired of these urges. I'm tired of the feeling of food in my throat just begging me to stick my finger down and rid myself of sin. Fuck I want to purge. The urge won't go away. fuck fuck fuck.
IHOP for breakfast. less than 360 calories.
Doctor's appointment. EKG good. 4 vials of blood drawn. Cleared for the IOP.
Biology reading.
Food. lots of it.
Blogs. read most, few/no comments.
Tired. bed. good night.

3 words from my listeners:

Elisabethgrace said...

I know how you feel.
Since I started purging, I just seem to want to keep purging. It's addictive....I don't know why.
Hope you have a good sleep.
Take Care.

Kari said...

It's really addictive. I'm proud of you for fighting. You can do it.

AbiAnne said...

Stay strong! Like the other 2 girls said, it's so addicting! You can do this. One day at a time! Hope the rest of your week went well!!

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