Wednesday, March 30, 2011

fucking paranoid

I think my best friend is telling on me. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I know that's what she should be doing but I swear to God if that's what she is doing, I will never EVER talk to her again. Besides maybe to say FUCK YOU BITCH! I don't know why she would tell. She's been encouraging me this whole time. Second thoughts maybe? I don't know and I don't care. All I know is I am freaking the FUCK out! She told me I had someone asking about me and how to get in touch with me and my family. It's like shit shit shit shit shit. I'm going crazy here. I'm not going to take the pills tonight though. I'm not going to be rash because if she is telling on me, if the person who was asking about me gets my mom's number, I don't want to give them a solid reason to put me in the hospital. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

EDIT: She's on.

1 words from my listeners:

Elisabethgrace said...

I'm sorry, I hope you can sort things out with your friend and she doesn't tell.

Although, on the upside if she does, you could try recover? But if you're not ready, being forced into hospital won't help.

I hope it's okay. & I'm glad you're not taking any pills!

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