Sunday, February 27, 2011


aka Down Syndrome. That is what my paper is on. This is the fourth time I've changed my mind on what it would be on. Although, it was my orignial idea. 0.o I have been working on this paper since about 2 this afternoon. I am on paragraph 5 of 7 and it is 8:36 pm. I'm so tired I'm going to go to bed after I type this. Stupid Abilify. I woke up this morning around 10:20 and ate breakfast. I was back in bed by 11. I have got to find a way to fight the sleepiness. I have to go to school. I have to find a way to function. If I don't go to school, I don't know what I would do with my time. I would have no purpose. I need a purpose. I can't afford to drop out. My grandma still isn't being supportive about school. I think I made the wrong decision about where I want to live. She is still trying to force me to eat. I can't stand it here. I want to go back to my grandma and grandpa's. I'm giving this place a week and if it doesn't get better, I'm out. I can't stand living here and I've only been here 3 nights! Pathetic. Tomorrow I am starting off my new diet. I am going back to calorie counting and portion control. I want to lose weight. I am too fat, much too fat. I was down to 102. I'm back up to 110. Gross disgusting fat. It doesn't help that I haven't been weighing myself before I eat. I will tomorrow though. I am not eating breakfast. I'll fake it. Well I'm tired. Good night.

2 words from my listeners:

SilentNightmare said...

Please TC hun *hugs*

Becky said...

You're alive!!! :D Yay! I'm assuming you got all of my texts? I just read the post you wrote when you came back. I am soooo glad that they found you and that you are okay.

My brother has Down Syndrome (I lovelovelove him!) I think it's a great thing to write a paper on.

I take more than one med that makes me sleepy so I just drink a lot of caffeine :/ Idk if that's very good advice though. You should talk to your doctor and see if they can't try putting you on something that won't make you tired.

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