Friday, February 4, 2011

*insert angry face here*

I am getting very frustrated about school. I can't remember anything! We could have talked about it in class 5 minutes before, but when we start answering questions, I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER!! fuck fuck fuck. I reviewed in both of my criminal justice classes today. I couldn't remember any of the material. I have a test on Monday. I haven't even read the chapter. I'm so fucking behind it's crazy. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why am I failing like this? School is supposed to be the one area I don't fuck up at. School is where I'm supposed to be perfect. I am good at school. Why am I slipping? fml.
Then I am frustrated about eating. I came home and I binged. I ate a lite yogurt. That wasn't bad. What I ate after that was. I had a peanut butter and honey sandwich (2 slices) w/ marshmallows. Can you fucking believe that?! What kind of fat ass eats peanut butter and marshmallows on a sandwich? They are bad enough alone, but together? Really? Grrrrrr. Then I proceeded to have a granola bar thing. I probably had 800 calories in that one setting alone. fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!!!!
I'm going to see my therapist in a little bit. Hopefully she won't find me to be too fat. Oh yeah, I weighed 108.8 this morning. It was only a .2 pound gain. I'm sure it'll be even worse tomorrow. Fat ass. Well I'll pop in later. <3

3 words from my listeners:

SilentNightmare said...

Hope your therapist session goes well

Elisabethgrace said...

Stay Strong.
Good luck with the therapist.

GraceyJ said...

awwh stay strong hun. and i hope everything went well with your therapist. she def wont think your fat!

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