it's been awhile

and I'm not sure how I've been. Christmas day was fairly nice. I got a new camera!! I got some new clothes. I'll take pictures and show you guys. I got a puzzle, a docking station for my i-pod, the latest Carrie Underwood CD, a bracelet, a ring, a coffee mug (weird gift but I really enjoy it! Nightmare Before Christmas baby!!), a picture frame that was supposed to be for graduation (which happened in June), a journal thing, and some Wii games to share with the family. It was a pretty good Christmas. We ate pancakes for brunch. They were yummy. We played our new Wii games. They were fun. Dinner was good I suppose. I stuffed my face. Then I had to stuff it even more. I forced myself to eat 1/8 of a pumpkin pie with whipped cream!! I was so full I thought I was going to throw up as I was eating it. I got it all down though. On Sunday, we went to my aunt's house for a snack/meal thing. I felt super fat when I was there, especially because I had binged on Puppy Chow right before we left. (fat ass!) I switched back over to stay with my grandma and grandpa. Let me just say, I was a mess. I felt so depressed on Sunday. I cried the whole way home. Then I cried so more when I laid down to go to sleep. It was horrible. Monday was better though. I weighed in at 113.8!! I know that is still really fat but it's waay better than I thought it would be! =D I went shopping with my grandma and grandpa. I got a new pair of jeggings from Kohl's. I didn't even know there was such a thing as jeggings until I got home and looked at the tag. lol. I'm so dumb! It must be 'cause I'm blonde. jk jk! They look super cute with my new shirts though. :) Downside is they make my thighs look uber fat. ='( I bought some black boots today to go with my new jeggings and shirts. It looks super cute! That is not something I would say about my clothes or even myself. But for once, I felt good. I still felt fat, but I thought I looked cute in a way too. I ate too much today. I'm sure I'll have gained. :( It's okay though. I can will lose this weight! I guess that's all the excitement. Night loves!

Oh and p.s. I dropped my phone in the toilet so now I get a new one!!