pictures

They fucking destroy me. I can't stand to look at them anymore. I'm in the kitchen with my family looking at old pictures. I see myself and I want to die. Then there are times when I don't see myself because I wasn't there. Why wasn't I there? I was in a fucking loony bin, developing my god damn eating disorder. Even in my before pictures I was still fat, so fucking fat. UGH! I fucking hate myself. I'm so disgusting. I'm huge. My face is chubby. My thighs are thick. My stomach so bloated. So fucking DISGUSTING!! fml.

*Sorry for the negativity. Maybe I'll get it all out before the new year. No need for comments. I just needed to vent. Sorry again.