Thursday, December 2, 2010

Finally a good day!

Compared to yesterday, today was a great day. I ate one thing all day long. I didn't drink any calories. I stuck with water. Good calorie-free drinking. So here is what I ate:

Chicken pot pie from KFC- 690 calories
1 stick of Extra gum- 5 calories
24 oz of water- 0 calories
Total: 695 calories

That to me is a really good day. It's below my daily goal of 750. Although I must admit that I am somewhat disappointed with today. I mean 690 calories in one meal? That's ridiculous. I told my grandma the calorie amount in our meal and she said that 690 was good. I was like 'are you serious?!' I was for real freaking out. I wish I would have just had something simple and small like a tv dinner but I should still be proud of how little I ate today. I didn't binge!!! I'm super proud of myself for that. =D Go me! lol jk. Hopefully I will at least have lost half a pound today. If not, whatever as long as I don't gain. I would die if I found I gained even more. It seems like all I've been doing lately is gain. I want to change that. December is a new month. I will lose this weight. I want to lose at least 10 pounds this month. I want to be as close to 100 pounds by New Year's. I am determined. I know I said I'm trying recovery but you know what, f' recovery. I want to be skinny. I want to be BEAUTIFUL. I will be those things. There is no stopping me. Well actually there is but I am going to fight to make this happen. I don't care what my therapist and family say. This is my life. This is my body. I'm doing this my way. I guess that's all for now. Night lovelies!

3 words from my listeners:

*Broken* said...

If you´re not determined to recover, it´ll never work and your right that´s a choise only you can make.
695 cals are really good!
I´m sure you are already beautiful but i know what you mean.
Take care sweetie

Epic Child said...

Yey! Good days are the best. I'm glad you didn't binge. That's something to be proud of. C:
Anddd I agree with Broken. You're already beautiful. :]
Hope you continue to have great days. :D

Night_Flower said...

I'm glad you had a good day =) I agree with both Broken and Epic Child though, you already are beautiful, even if you can't see it. =)
Take care,
Night_Flower xx

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