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Today was a very rough day. I broke down crying so many times that I lost track. Pathetic, huh? I'm just extremely hormonal thanks to my period. (fat failure!) Then I found out that my best friend is back in a long-term hospital. She's been there for about 3 weeks. Before then she was in a short term hospital. She went in on October 28. It's my fault. I know it's my fault. Sure you'll all say it's not, but I know, I know it is. Here's why. Just a few weeks before her latest hospitalization, she was in the hospital for a suicide attempt. When she got out, I freaked out. I was fighting with her every time we talked. I was just so angry for so many reasons. On the 26th of October, we got into another fight. Then I just stopped talking to her. I feel horrible. I've been thinking of her a lot lately and then today my mom breaks the news. I feel like shit. I just don't want to do this anymore. Fucking depressed as hell. Suicidal thoughts increasing.
Enough of that. Today I saw Yogi Bear with my family. I thought it looked stupid at first but the movie was actually rather good. There was no Cindy bear though. Also the ranger's name wasn't Ralph. 0.o
Other than that, I just don't know. Today was crap. Maybe tomorrow will be better. One day closer to Christmas!