AS (AlwaysStriving)

This post is just to let you know that AS has admitted herself to an eating disorder unit. She has been there since Monday June 6. I am keeping in touch with her so if you have any messages for her, tell me and I will pass them along. :)

Here is the e-mail from her second night there:

Hey, guys.

So, here is an update for all of you.

Whew...I've been inpatient for over twenty-four hours and IT HAS NOT BEEN EASY.

I wasn't able to have the meals/supplements so they put a feeding tube in today. Not gonna lie...it hurt like hell. They said it would jsut be uncomfortable, but I was in a TON of pain. But, I know that I need it in order to start getting some nourishment again. Dinner was a little better...I tried to have a little bit more off of my plate and then they gave me the rest of the supplement required. I will be able to get off of the tube once I can have 100% foods and 100% fluids for an entire 48 hours. Eek.

Its pretty scary right now, and challenging, and a real emotional rollercoaster. It has been lonely but between all of the doctors and different types of therapists here on my team I have a truly excellent support system and I feel really blessed to have it. It has been slow getting to know the other girls since I've pretty much been in zombie mode here and they are all further along in their recoveries...many of them are looking at leaving here in a week or two...and I am not totally sure what kind of time line to expect. But, anyways, they have all been very encouraging and understanding and it is nice to be around people who are in the same boat as I am, although I am most definitely the largest person here! (Although they all think that, ha ha).

Anyways, I just thought I would send out an update.  

Alright, guys, I don't have much more to say. But, at the end of one of THE hardest (not worst, but hardest) days of my life, I can say that I am feeling more hopeful about beating this than I have before. I have a good team here. And, we'll see!

Be in touch.

Lots of love, and all the best,

AS

Wishing you the best of luck AS!

You're my inspiration.