Total FAIL!!

So I totally broke my fast yesterday. I was pissed but I kinda had to. My lovely psychiatrist decided to put me on a new medication. It's for anxiety because apparently I "worry too much". When I tried to explain to him that the main cause of my worry was my ED and that a pill wouldn't stop the thoughts, he just ignored me. So now I take some damn BuSpar or whatever the heck it is. I'm supposed to take it with food 3 times a day. It's like seriously? FML!! So on Tuesday (Day 2 of my fast), I took it and I started having dizzy spells. I nearly passed out. That was one of the side effects so I was like ok, maybe it's just the meds. Well it happened throughout the day so I came home from school and took a nap. I thought I was better until I tried to kill a spider (<--that sounds weird but yeah.). My grandma was like ok, you're eating. So that was that. I ate. I lost all control. Then I kinda ended up binging. I binged today too. It was not good. I will not be able to lose 10-12 pounds in 14 days. Well maybe I could but only if I didn't eat that whole time. There's noo way I could get away with that. Especially not with my dizzy spells. The last thing I need is to pass out. So I don't know what I'm going to. All I do know is I have to do something different. I HAVE TO lose this weight. It's not a matter of want. It's a matter of need. Curse this life of mine!

P.S. So have you noticed I start a lot of my sentences with "so"? lol