I wish...

So I wish I could say this is easy.
I wish I could say that I'm strong.
I wish I could say that I'm happy.
I wish I could tell EDNOS "so long."

I wish I was able to quit this.
I wish I was able to stop.
I wish I was through with this shit.
I wish I didn't wish for weight loss.

I wish I could say that I'm done,
With this and the pain that it brings.
I wish I could say that I won
Instead of continue to scream.

I wish I could kiss this good-bye
And be happy for the rest of my life.
Instead I wish to die
And I want to die tonight.