I am weak.

I cannot do this.
I am not strong.
I am scared.
I am not here
but I am here.
I am not alive,
merely existing.
This is not life.
Want to lose.
Sick of the gain.
Sick of the game.
Sick of myself.
So much for a new month.
Soon it'll be a new birth year.
Whoop-de-fucking-do.
Cannot do this.
Do not want to do this.
fuck fuck fuck.
What am I going to do?
I am scared.
Too much pressure.
Too much stress.
Too much weight.
Too much.
Too much.
Too much.
Just make it stop.