I want to...

scream.
cut.
bleed.
cry.
escape.
eat.
not eat.
binge.
purge.
write away the madness.
talk to you.
give up.
throw everything away.
leave this all behind.
be free.
fly not fall.
soar not sink.
breathe.
be happy.
not feel this way.
commit suicide.
DIE.