Monday, September 27, 2010

What monster was I today?

...a COOKIE MONSTER! What a fat pig I am. I don't even know how many cookies I ate today. I'm sure I probably had like 30!!! It was absolutely ridiculous. It's like seriously? WTF was I thinking?! I need to do better than this. I say I want to lose weight but all I do is shove food into my mouth. I am WEAK WEAK WEAK!!! It doesn't help that my grandma keeps making comments about how I "don't eat enough" and she "worries about me". It's like please shut up! I'm sick of being the bottomless pit of an always hungry monster. No, I want control. I want perfection. Not fat and imperfection. UGH! I HATE MYSELF!!!

1 words from my listeners:

f*ckedUpAppendix said...

You are not weak. You are beautiful and strong and you will get yourself out of this 'bottomless pit' and I'll be with you every step of the way if you need me. I'm always here for you. Please take care. xo.

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