Wednesday, September 14, 2011

another (failed) attempt

On September 2, I overdosed. It was a rather serious suicide attempt. I ended up in ICU before going to the psych hospital. I'm no longer suicidal :) but I am still a little bit unstable. My meds were really fucked with in the hospital and I'm hoping my psychiatrist will get me sorted out today when I see him. While in the hospital, I lost 6 pounds. I was there for a week and a half. I am now at my lowest weight (99.4 after breakfast as of yesterday). I am worried about another hospitalization in my future. My therapist always told me if I went below 100, she would hospitalize me. I guess I'll find out.
On the positive side (I think..), I finally got set up with the eating disorder doctor. The appointment is in a month. That's the soonest she can see me. Think I can lose 5 (or more) pounds by then? That's not very positive. lol. Typical Debbie Downer/Negative Nancy. Oh well.
No one will probably notice this but just thought I'd say I'm alive and doing better.

5 words from my listeners:

Mae said...

I'm glad you're still with us.

xo

Sheila said...

I know you don't know me but i have been reading your blog for some months now and i have to say i was worried that you might kill yourself. It is really nice to hear you are not suicidal anymore and that you are still here.

Lissy. said...

I'm so, so glad you're okay xxxxxxxx

Kim said...

I'm really sorry this happened. Hopefully you'll be getting some good treatment that can help you feel better and happier.

scared blogger said...

Im so glad you are ok <3
Oh my God Please be careful
I AM SO GLAD that u have ur therapist and ur psychiatrist etc, I really hope u get to see the ed doctor soon and U DO NOT NEED TO LOSE ANY WEIGHT BEFORE SEE THEM!!


Lov u and sorry Ive been way,
Ais,
xxXXxx

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