What monster was I today?

...a COOKIE MONSTER! What a fat pig I am. I don't even know how many cookies I ate today. I'm sure I probably had like 30!!! It was absolutely ridiculous. It's like seriously? WTF was I thinking?! I need to do better than this. I say I want to lose weight but all I do is shove food into my mouth. I am WEAK WEAK WEAK!!! It doesn't help that my grandma keeps making comments about how I "don't eat enough" and she "worries about me". It's like please shut up! I'm sick of being the bottomless pit of an always hungry monster. No, I want control. I want perfection. Not fat and imperfection. UGH! I HATE MYSELF!!!

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Before I get started, I just wanted to say that you might not want to read this. Not just this post, but any post I ever type. I'm a pessimist to put it nicely. I'm not a good person. I think I'm a monster. I would recommend not getting to know me because I will only end up hurting you. I guess what I'm trying to say is don't get attached because I will only push you away. Am I doing that already? Hmm. I guess I'm just not worth anyone's time. Maybe once and awhile the sun will come out and you might see a side of me you've never seen before. But really, expect a monster.